That Sense of Freedom


Ok, its 2016 and, as usual, my brain has been rattling on over the roads of last year as a a way of clearing out for what is happening this year. Over the last several months of 2015, I experienced this *interesting* (and yes just that kind of interesting) cycle of revisiting old patterns and the people involved in them, mostly family members who are notoriously angry and stuck.

I noticed that these old patterns were ones I dealt with five years ago and one by one, I revisited each of them. Hmmm. However, I stepped back into each pattern only to find myself pushed back out of the pattern as if the universe was telling me…

Nope, you are not part of this pattern any longer.
Get on out of here.

Ok. At first this felt really odd, like wait a minute don’t I HAVE to be part of this? I mean these were OLD patterns. But when I asked, What is wanted? What I heard back was “nothing.” That this revisiting I was moving through was a form of releasing. I was free of these old patterns forevermore. Wow.

With that sense of freedom resonating through me, I began properly musing on what wants to come through as my intention for 2016. My first action was to ask what words want to be present. What I received was the word ‘emergence’ and the word ‘free’.


With these words came a vision of a woman breaching out of the water, the ocean, like a whale. It was not so much she was in the act of breaching but rather that she had breached and was completely free of the water.

Lady of the Ocean Singing by Annette Wagner, 2015

Lady of the Ocean Singing by Annette Wagner, 2015

The constraints holding her in the past were broken. She was free to be herself and move into new adventures. She embodied that precious moment of complete emergence from the chrysalis. Her wings are glorious and full and dry. And the moment she flexes them, she is in flight.

This sense of emergence is about breaking free of patterns of financial entanglement with unsupportive people, health issues holding me back from a state of healthy balance in my body, and around moving more deeply into living and working as an artist every single day. Suddenly I am living in a new paradigm called emergence.

I am in that moment where I can no longer feel the drag of the chains of old patterns on me. That moment where I draw into my lungs a deep breath of fresh clean free air, untainted and pure. That moment where I stretch my new wings and they lift me up and I know I am am forever free. I am never returning to those patterns ever again. I am fully emerged here in this moment, in this reality.

And if this is where I am right now, at the end of 2015 and moving into 2016, then what is my intention for 2016?

Its not about breaking free – I am free. This state of having emerged, of broken free means I get to muse and imagine and set intention from this new free place. It changes everything! I am free to ask new questions. I live, decide, and make choices from this place of freedom. It makes me feel all new and tingly all over. 

From this new place, I asked what is my intention for 2016?

to manifest with new eyes annette

To Manifest with New Eyes.

Is what I received. I love this idea! And the very first thing that happened was that one of my unfinished paintings stirred from her rest and showed me what she wanted done to be complete. It was a major make-over of grand proportions from her prior state. And it happened, snap!, just like that. You can see her up above – her name is Lady of the Ocean Singing.

may your year be filled with love and creativity,

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Join Annette on Paint Where You Are Sundays at the Cosmic Cowgirls Studio in Healdsburg. The theme this year is, yup you guessed, EMERGENCE!
Beginning Sunday January 10, 2016

Emergence 2016 small

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IntSketch- annette-croppedAnnette Wagner, M.A., is a Visionary Artist, Color of Woman Intentional Creativity teacher (many thanks to Ms. Shiloh for her teachings!), and Art Doctor.  She paints Contemporary Symbolism and watercolor sumi-e paintings. She works extensively with metaphor, symbol, and color. She is the Managing Editor of the Cosmic Cowgirls Magazine and staff at Shiloh Sophia Studios

Annette studied with American Master painter Sue Hoya Sellars and has a Masters in Women’s Spirituality  from Sofia University. Her background includes over 25 years of hi-tech experience including 21 patents. She is owned by her dancing daughter, two cat beings, the man of her heart, and her Muse. You can view her artwork and read more about Annette at:

Author: Annette Wagner

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